She agreed to have her diary published so that otherpeople who think that AIDS and rape cant ever happen to them can have a differentperspective. The times in which this diary takes place is from April 14, 1991 to April 12,1993. the book starts out when Nancy is getting ready to go to a Garth Brooks concert with herfriends El and Red, Imagine me going to a concert! A Garth Brooks concert! (p. 3), andends two days before she dies, Nancy died in her sleep April 12th two days after her lastentry (p.
219). In Nancys diary the places that impacted her life were:- at her home in SouthCarolina with her mother, friends and boyfriend, in Phoenix, Arizona with her dad, and inIdaho with her Aunt Thelma. Nancy mostly loved to stay with her mother, but then had toleave for her mothers good. Her home in South Carolina is normal. Her mother was a real-estate agent, sothey didnt see each other that much. Her friends, El, Red, Dorie and Lew, are all part ofa group called the gaggle, which means talkative or a group of geese.
Lew is of coarsethe gander, meaning the male goose, of the gaggle and Nancys boyfriend. Nancysfriends are apart of her life in the biggest way possible, Ill miss the gaggle, they are likemy sisters and not my brother (p. 174). In Phoenix, Arizona she lives with her dad during the summer. Her dad loves herdearly, he is a very protective and caring figure in her life, Dad lovingly but firmly toldme that if I dont eat every two hours he is going to take me directly to the hospital(p.
150). She spent her last couple of months with her aunt Thelma in Idaho. Her aunt wasthe biggest influence in her life. Her aunt taught her how to see even the smallest thingsand memorize them and paint them or describe them to her aunt as if her aunt was blind,Aunt Thelma had me close my eyes and describe the picture of the tiny garden in thesmallest detail (p. 198).
Many people influenced Nancys life from her aunt Thelma, who taught herself-discipline, to her three doctors, Dr. Sherian, Dr. Marx, and Dr. B, who all taught herabout AIDS and how to deal with it. Her parents really werent an influence in her lifebecause they were too busy with their own. Nancy didnt really accomplish anything in the last two years of her life.
She wastoo busy with AIDS and her rape situation. She did accomplish though to have her bookpublished, which happened the last week of her life. A lady by the name of Dr. B came toIdaho and talked to Nancy about publishing her diary and Nancy agreed with delight, Aunt Thelma excused herself and went up to the house, leaving me and Dr. B to talkabout my book (p. 213).
The biggest disappointment of Nancys life was when she got raped. This affectedher a lot because other than the fact that her self-esteem had gotten very low, but it lefther with AIDS, and having AIDS changed her life socially, mentally and physically. AIDS really changed Nancys social life when everyone found out about it. Everyone was going out of their way to be nice to her. Then that all stopped and peoplestarted teasing her, by pushing each other close to her and telling her to kiss that personand give them her special something.
The only people that stayed nice to her after theyfound out that she had AIDS was the gaggle. Mentally she was breaking down. She always cried and thought that everythingwas her fault from her parents divorce, to her being raped, to her having AIDS, Imgoing nuts (p. 139). Physically she was slowly starting to lose weight , at one point she was 61pounds, and also was losing energy.
She became pale and fragile, I passed a full-lengthmirror. . . . .
. and the creature that looked back at me was like something from a horror flick!Stringy hair!. . . .
. . sunken eyes and big ugly black things starting on my face and neck(p. 217). In the last two years of her life Nancy was strong even though at times herweaknesses took over.
She had to be strong in order to deal with AIDS and her rapesituation, which were all far from gone. On her sixteenth birthday her friend El had aparty for her and they went to the movies and right in the middle of the movie she wetherself, right there in her seat. She thought she was going to die, but she pulled herselftogether in the end, Everyone, everyone in the whole place, would witness myhumiliation. .
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my pain, my shame (p. 143), Ill be all right (p. 145). Nancys favorite saying or quote is think about that tomorrow, which she foundby reading a book written by a lady named Scarlett. She would use that quote when shedidnt want to worry or think about the present problem or situation.
Dr. B was the person that wanted to publish Nancys diary. Nancy agreed and saidthat her diary might help other people look at their life in another perspective and neverto say never, because they never know what will happen to them. It worked for me.Biographies